Consider the Blog
“Should I even do this? What should I write about? Who would even want to read what I have to say?”
Those are the questions that encompassed my mind on a daily basis for nearly a year before finally mustering up the courage to write my first blog post. One of the things I’ve struggled with over my lifetime is an ever-present feeling of inadequacy to my peers. I’ve never been an extrovert and at times I find myself uncomfortable in social situations for no apparent reason. In college, I worked two part-time jobs while studying in a rigorous science program and often went many weeks without seeing friends outside of classes. I’d like to think I got my social interaction from YouTube, as I became an avid subscriber and watched a number of channels like they were TV episodes. The creators felt like friends to me as I entered their homes, jobs and lives through their personal vlogs. However, deep down inside I knew something was missing, a need to explore my own creativity more. Some of the options I came up with to seek out new experiences included starting my own vlogging channel and taking acting classes to get out of my shell a little more. Even though I was in every musical throughout elementary school at both school and church, it turns out I wasn’t cut out for the world of drama any longer. My YouTube channel started during a difficult time in my life when my husband was diagnosed with cancer and I was just starting an accelerated nursing program. Maybe I’ll give that a try again someday, but for the time being, it wasn’t what I felt a passion for.
It wasn’t until 2020 when the Covid-19 pandemic struck the world, that I even began to explore blogging as my creative outlet. I was pregnant with my first baby, so my doctor placed me off work early to avoid getting the virus and like several other earth dwellers in those early months of quarantine, I tried a series of hobbies to help pass the time. I decided to try my hand at crocheting a blanket for the little guy who’d soon be joining our family. That lasted a whole two days, but I did end up with a hand cramp and two very crooked coasters that now live as decorative accents under half burned candles. My next venture was to learn how to sew with the vintage 1960’s sewing machine I inherited from my grandmother. Needless to say, there aren’t many YouTube tutorials for vintage sewing machines, and I couldn’t reach out to the manufacturer for directions because it just so happened that in the 1980’s they made the noble switch to manufacturing vacuum cleaners. Just my luck.
After watching every Star Wars movie and too many reality TV episodes on Netflix, I gave up the screen and resorted to good ole fashioned paper. Something about the silence that filled my home and the freedom of not having any other responsibilities for the day made the perfect setting for a reading marathon. I’ve always loved reading but something about this experience sparked an idea in me that I knew I needed to explore. In a way, this whole experience feels a lot like when I was in college and didn’t have much of a social life which also led me down another path of self-realization.
I’m a huge fan of Pinterest quotes (cheesy, I know) and during this period of reflection, I came across one that said, “Pay attention to the things you are naturally drawn to. They are often connected to your path, passion and purpose in life. Have the courage to follow them.” If that didn’t speak directly to the desire I have for creativity and something I can call my own, I don’t know what does. I was once told that God gives you desires and passions for a reason… so that you can use them, and they can be a blessing to others.
So here we are, welcome, thank you for visiting my blog! I’m hoping to leave 2020 behind and start fresh in 2021 with a new attitude and a positive outlook. I’ve got a little bit of something for everyone here from faith, lifestyle, career, marriage and (new) mom life. I’m sure there is something everyone can relate too. I’m hoping through my words I can offer some joy, inspiration and friendship to my readers, just as I’ve received through the writings of others, as well as continue to grow as a person and a blogger.
See you soon!